i failed .

again . i cant chill .

for not to make her be dissapointed again , can i just give out whatever i hope and just let her be happy ?

for her .. i m always not that chill .

but then ..

i not means that ..

but what the answer she give to me really hurt a lot thats why i just wanna to tell her ...

at last ..

she will only comment on me that i cant change and chill .

ya .

she dissapoited again and again .

i already try my best .

i know she aint happy at all to together with me .

so can i just give up and just let the everything goes .. maybe this is the way to let her be happy always ?

i hearts her ...

i hurt her

yea . i know that i hurt u much .

i make u dissapointed .

but then ..

because of i love u i have to say so .

the way for me to solve this problem is i want both of us know what problem on us and only hav a lil changes on it

this the way for us to solve the problem ..

but conclusion for now .. u never want to give us a chance to try but then u just keeep on ur decision that v not suitable or wad ...

not that i cant be patient .

just i wanna clear for everything and so just v can successs in every plan of us that planned before .

i dunno what should i do anymore .

maybe i stop disturb ur life is the best for u ...

i try my best already but then i still failed on everything .

i know i uselesss .

i broke all the promise on take care on u or wadever about i love u ..

i give up for now is just because i dunwan to argue with u anymore . i know ur tired . i jiust give up because i love u .

i know u hope for peace .

anyway ,

i love u my dear .

do love u always .

my heart damn aches for now honestly .

sorry for offline in the sudden .

i miss her

is wake up in the sudden on the sharp0544am now ..

i cant even fall in sleeep .

exhauted but then i miss her badly .

where are you ?

are you fine ?

hais

my lovely mum

my mum ,

who ask me go out with her to the bank for passing something to me .

omg, my mum

she did a lot for our family ,

by the way ,

i look on her face ,

我发现了她的辛苦 ，

我也开始发现了她逐渐地老了,

when the way i come back to penang with sis ,

i told her ,

sis , mum look old than before a lot dy . omg ! the aches in my heart raise wey ! luckily i can control , so called (ai bin ) .. i just take it nothing but then i just try to release all my feeling at here that without knowing by any ppls .

try to think if i without mum , what kind of ppl i will be for now .

mum , thanks for did so much for our family .

i know that u put a lot of hope on me this son .

i will never tell u all about this .

but then i promised myself that i will did back alot for u .

u will be proud of me at the last but not dissapointed .

sorry for the past the i did a lot that makes u worry and dissapointed about it just like i cant even finish the diploma when the time i m in kl .

sorry for my stubborn cause a lot of hurt towards you .

sorry for i always scold back u when the time i get scold by you .

because of my unpatient , u all always give me the chance to change and wont scold me a lot about that , just will tell me about that that i have to change .

sorry for everything expecially for the time i makes u tears ....

really sorry for that .

mum , i love you .

trust me .

i will be the one who make u proud .

I AINT PERFECT AT ALL ! * but i will change my everything to be perfect just like one in an million !

i love you mum and also my lovely family .

thanks for the support all the way .

she always pops out in my mind

She is the one who gave me a lot of energy before .

I keep on telling one of my friend that i miss her .

I hope that we can same back as before .

but again.......

everything of mine start to change since the day we seperate .

I finally realise how bad am i .

i cant tolerate with every ppls .

my attitude just sucks .

i m only the ppl who always forgive or tolerate by ppls until i not really realise it .

today , i get it and i am sure that i will change for everything .

i will be patient on everything .

by the way control my stubborn .

not be so sticky .

i know she dun like it ..

MY DEAr .

can i still same as before calling u as my dear ?

can i still same like before can story u when u are free ?

can i be the one who answer ur call when u having nightmare ?

i got a lot of can i ....

when will we got the chance again ?

or maybe no more ?

i love you .still the same miss u every moment .

u makes me got the feel wanna go kl to find u right now but then i have to chill for my final 1st . =)

i know sure u will mroe angry on me if i do so ..

i cannot be so disgusting ! hahahhahhaa

however , i hope u are fine for now ..

not to be so tress .

chill in ur final .

relax ur mind more .

sleep more .

dun give urslef too much of pressure .

but then dun always spend ur money okay ?

dun take those pillls if too stress or headache okay ?

many of don `t to u ! hahaha

waiting for ur back .

i cant wait to see u honestly .

although v are no more couple .......

end of today ..

sleep time ...

good night and also goodbye ppls .

text for Her that will not be send out today .

``my dear , so called da fei .

ni zhe ji tian zeng yang ar ?

you mei you bi jiao fang song zhi ji ar ?

shui de hao bu hao ar ?

how about ur finals ar ?

how ur lect treat u ar ?

u long time din show me ur work already yea .

i like u lansi ur works to me ar ?

between , u got ur talent ! hehe

honestly from my heart ! i love ur book cover and typo much but then i din say smth nice to u ! muahahhahaa

okay la . sleeep easrly for the night . good night and sleeep tight . i love you miss u muchiessss ....

=) ``

FROM THE ME LCW =(

i know u dun like it ...

how are you ?

how are u today ?

still the same busying with ur final ?

got enough of rest ? take ur lunch already ?

will u feel boring ?

got drink lot of water ?

need some story to chilll ?

do u got miss me just same like i miss you ?

sorry that u loved you .

still the same i wanna find u but i worry .

worry that i m annoying for you .

worry that i talk about the sensitive things again .

scare that wont have the chance anymore .

i love you my girl .

hope that you are mine .

bright future waiting for us .

but all that ....

is now already become the impossible .

woww....

hope u happy forever .

smile sweet stills .

u are always the best for me .

the most perfect gf who can change me a lot

the most perfect gf that i not even hav before .

i love you just like what i told others that i love you .

still the same ,

melissa tan ,

sorry to you because i cant be perfect for you .

i do love you and miss you much .

=)

u such my angel

good morning ppls ,

is really lack of sleep and feeel tired for this few day because of i not really can hav a good sleep in this few day .

again and again , i dreamed her .

well, i know those are only the sweet moment in my dream ,

i hope that it can be real but then i know that was impossible ,

she is sweet in my dream ,

care enough in my dream ,

i feel the warm from her in my dream ,

i really miss her a lot ,

honestly , is a dream , honestly i dreamed her ...

why only got the dream but then not in the realistic life ?!

seriously down .

i cant even stop thinking her !

i know i cant !

although i try !

i learn to be control well in everything but i know i failed .

well, final soon . i stress enough i want all the best in my work , but the situation of me by now is more stress and stress ....

i hope that it back to before .. i hope that everything can turn back to before ...

the us that without any worrying and enjoying all the moment without any stresss ....

Please

love u .