nothing that change much ...

it still same as before ...

nothing that change much ..

i will still the same at least click once on ur facebook ... to look into ur facebook ...

that is for me to know that what are u doing on ur daily life recently ..

i care on u ...

=(

i miss u .......

i m now trying to adjust myself...

go away my bad attitude !!!!!!!!!

only for u my ex

u never find me anymore ..when my phone ring, i'm not sure if it was you, when someone calls my name, i'm not sure if it was yo, but one thing for sure, my heart beats only for YOU..there is many things we do and we dont know why we do them! like lying to the one you really care about and didnt plan to loose. it seems like only yesterday when i had you in my arms now your gone with someone new, and it hurts to know that i lost you forever! if only i can tell you how much i love and how much i wanna have you in my arms once more! but thats something i can never do cuz i would not want to hurt your new love. i took you for granted and now i have to live with it. i cry myself to sleep everynight thinking of what could of been, and it hurts when i think that im never gonna find out. all i can say is that im sorry and i wish you the best but when i say that im wishing you the best it kills me inside cuz what im really wishing for is to have you once more!!!

Sorry ,I will never break the promise I made anymore. I still love you as much as I used to before. I'm so sorry for whatever I did. I promise you to be a fully transformed Lim Chean Wei if there is still a chance that u will give it to me .

Do u still remember this ?

as wad i know,she are now in a.s

but what to do..

i miss her but what to do ?

i want to see her but what to do..

ppl seeems forget me alreADY ..

ppl seems feelingless ady ...

what to do ?

she doesnt find me anymore...its make me not dare to disturb her anymore too ...

i love her..this is what i can do(just dun try to ruin her life anymore)

this is only the what i can do...

by the way,

there are still lot of faker in front u..

be steady ..ppl fake in front u , so u just fake back to ppl .

=) chil

although it already past and doesn't mean anything for both of us now, but it'll be part of my memory, now and forever

???

should i give up everything ?

including you ?

god ! i m so ..........

well , i love her much ! =(

but she is not in love with me anymore .

The reason

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with every day
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

blog is the way i can only release my stress here

who know ?

who know what the feeling of me right this moment ?

i got a lot of stuff to think .

honestly to say ,

i m upset for everymoment .

i done a lot of stupid crazy thing for this past few day .

ya , i know that no more turning point for me .

is all because of me , i should not try to do so at 1st but its now too late for everything .

i ruin all the things .

yea , the way i ruin this thing not means that i m really so bad enough .

i know what wrong that i m doing , that is from my chong dong .

i admit that she make the right decision to dump me away and away because i hurt her much .

my word which are just treatening her , i should understand her feeling when the time i not yet say about it .

why i m so stupid antd always do such sucks stuff ?!

who know my feeling for now ?

everything changed .

the way she treat me for now are totally different from the first time we meet up .

i m upset but then i know that is karma for me .

i know that the way she treat me now is what i should get for now .

i trying my best to get back her even whats crazy stuff also i did ady for my last chance also i still failed , thats what i expect earlier from that .

i m sorry for everything .

i just hope that ur life will getting more and more bright ! hope that u happy just like the colour of rainbow .

smile always .

i cant be the perfect partner for u .

so that i should give up everything for now .

this is what should i get at last , i know .

dun worry on me . i m okay .

i just can say that i love you always .

u deep inside my heart

hard to get someone who can replace it anymore .

between , i promise that i surely will be more and more good than before .

thanks you for all the happy memories u give to me , i love to be with u .

eventhough i cant hav the last hug from u , i cant hold ur hand anymore ,but i still can feel the warm that given by u all the time .

i know its hard to forgive someone who hurt u deeply , i know is hard to replace the heart that u already heartless towards me , but i can tell u truely from my heart that i already try my very best .

i done a lot of things that i never do it before .

i love myself , i love u too .

i love the thing u gave to me .

i love to be acc by u .

well , u are always the good listener for me .

thanks for all the shiny days v pass through before that u gave to me .

i will always remember it =)

yea , imma damn stress and pressure for now .

those stuff kill me soon .

65 drawing i have to finish up in a very shorten time .

i cant even draw a nice thing for nw .

65 drawing is actually not really hard for me but u know where my stress come from ?

is the night when i m trying to draw smth about her but few hour i stone at there i still cant get the way to start it !

who understand my feeling on that time !

D len is only the one who tell me = c.w , how u gonna draw out a things for now ? once u look on her pic that appear on ur lappy , ur mind cant be relax again .u giving urself too much of pressure already !

but i cant stop it . no one can stop it . who can dunwan think about his partner that nice to her before ?

i never complain to anyone about my stress on my work .

because thats my choice to study in this programme .

i expect it earlier ago .

but i also need someone who can be my listener always .

last time was she , but now is no one .

honestly seriously i want to share my thing with her but then i cant get back her heart anymore

everytime once i share my thing with her , i will getting more and more comfortable .

wowww..my life nowaday really sucks .

its hard to balance all the stuff that in my mind for now .

who can be my listener for now ?

can someone talk and hav fun in call together with me when i m stress ? no one who can replace it even dlen .==

as u ppl know , i damn dun like to gossip by ppl .

well , nowaday i m just like a ppl who can be their target to be gossip.

i m so scare for everyday .

i dun like to face any of my fren for now .

eventhough i m going to sg soon , who know whats inside my heart .

i just dunno how to face everybody who will be going together .

everything become worst .

but i cannot blame on anybody because all this trouble is come from me .

again , me the one who makes thing worst !

god , teach me what to do for now okay or not ?

i m trying my best to do my all work perfectly before i go to sg why i just cant do it properly ?

where is the spirit ?

my right hand ! why u always shake ?!!!!

u shake until i cant draw out a straight line u know !!

go away from me .

no one who can be my listener anymore pls .

god , can u just forgive me pls .

i promise u my GOD , i surely will be the perfect one after this .

i already try my best .

can u just try to relax me pls .

the day that most hard for me to pass .

chean wei

18/05/2011

4pm sharp !

you are the only

again something trouble was happened on us ,

its the same mistake that i repeat again on this time .

because of my stubborn,

because of my sensitive,

because of my attitude ,

u finally give up toward me .

i know i promise u before that once it happened again i will only accept the decision u make .

i know i should keep the promise but then i hav to say sorry about that because i say the wrong thing , i really need sometimes to change . no one who know i will repeat it again in 3 day time .

i dun hope such thing happened on me too .

i know u already try ur best to give me a lot of chance ,

i love you,

its my fault that i din appreciate it .

i just hope that things will got the turning point , i really dunwan to los u .

as i say i promise that i will change it within a week time or 2 week time .

u know most of the time i dun means it but then my word that really too hurt u .

i apologize about it .

i din means to treaten u , just the way i talk . omg ! i hate myself much until i dunno how to explain to u .

i m regret on wad i said to u . that time .

i m always protect u .

i worry u all the time .

i hope can be the angle for u always .

i m so selfish , i hope that i m ur prince ! =)

i hope i can be the one who always acc u when u are alone although i know u used to be alone .

i hope i can cook for u when u are busy .

i hope i m the one who u will call when i insomia or nightmare , but i dun hope u will get this kind of thing happen again la because i dunwan my dear so scare and cant get into sleeep . =)

i hope i m the one who can always draw for u .

i hope i m the one who can share everything with u .

i hope i m the one who can help u tidy ur thing .

i hope that i m the one who can plan everything with u .

so many the hope and the hope...

i wish all the hope can be real .

v got a lot of memories .

do u still remember ?

try to recall back .. v are actually can stay smoothly and happily .

v are actually a perfect couple .

just always the same thing happened , my bad attitude which always cause it ! i hate myself much ! now only i regret ! i know that too late for me .

but i really hope that u will try to give me a chance . i will prove all the thing .

v are couple wad, v planned a lot , not so easy to let a good one away from us right ?

everything v can solve right ?

just need the time for us to calm down and settle it right ?

no one of the couple which will broke so easily one ma right ?

try to be consider okay ?

glad to hav the chance be ur bf , its my pleasure .

dun feel any stress when read this kay ?

just try to be relax okay ?

a lot of them who really look good on us my dear ...

i dun hope the relationship that gain by us together gone so easily .

v work hard for this , v just cant waste it just because for the stuff okay ?

trust me ,

i will work harder and harder for all the thingy .

i will arrange all the thing .

and dun worry ,

i like to say smth but i really din mean it .

i will try not to say those sensitive okay ?

i will never leave u alone .

and i never chg my mind , i will still go sg even that i told u that i dunwan to go .

so dun worry okay ?

i m a gentleman i wont throw u alone seriously .

dear . i miss u badly but then i not really dare to find u anymore .

i scare that i m annoying for u .

hope that i m not actually .

i so feel want to hug u right now .

love u from the bottom of my heart ! its truth !

let us work hard again for continue our this relationship okay ????

marry to me as my gf for this moment, okay ? but marry to me as my wife in the future that dunno by us , okay ?

<3

i heart you , MELISSA TAN

by UR SO CALLED PUI AR PUI ....

THE DAY I WENT TO KL FOR YOU

well , i done a crazy action for only want to accompany u that day .

actually i planned wanna back to hometown on that time but then suddenly smth pop out in my mind tell me that i miss you lot and i want to accompany u my dear...

thats why i try my best to get myself go to kl on that day .

yea , few day few night that i been there .

although v less outing and all the time was in home for work but i feel that it quite happy actually . this because the person i together is with u .

v enjoy all the time , v do our own work together .

v cook .

v chit chat .

so fun right ?

the happiest moment sure is the cooking lesson from u to me ! hahahhahaa .

i dunno how to cut potato ! omg !!!!!!dun laugh at me pls .

i miss the moment that u suddenly call me pui ar pui ... lol ! so funny .

i love to hug u .

and i keep complain to u that why all the time i been home .

hahahha ! pls dun mind about it okay ?

i know u try ur best to bring me out on the last 2 night !

i know u try to bring me for movie at the last night !

dear,

actually u no need to do so because i m just say it .

i m so happy together with u .

and i dun mind that always at home u know ? i saja want kapsiao u la ! hahahaha

between , the movie that intro by u really nice la !

somemore because of i say want go klcc then how tired u are but u still bring mr to klcc for only the lunch ! u do lot for me ! i appreciate it !

u love the mickey that draw by me to u ?

got paste it on ur wall ? hahahhaa

thanks for the drawing stuff ya !

u late to coll also because of me , i fall as sleeep ! actually i told u that i will wake u up because i tot i just want to look on u when u sleep . manatau i too tired already ... sorry about that ...

the next day i get the punishment , i m also lack at last i choose to skip it ! omg !!! i promise myself i cant skip anymore . back to puncture collegues life !!!!!xD

i m so happy for all the day actually although i have to do a lot of stuff that i never did at home before at there just like wash all the plate (wa... u always chg the new plate ),tidy ur room when u are in coll (geli lo bawah katil u .. hahahhaa ),sweep the floor when u are still in the sweet dream (wa just realise i really like asam lo ! ) , ppl say want help me wash cloth but at last i hav to wash it by myself and hang it and keep it (wow...tiam lo ) , someone keep order me dafei ar da fei , ni hen hao de ma hor , ke yi bang wo this and that ma (hahahahhaha! i love you ), cook the water (much hor...... many many time that i cook ! is u drink much or me ?!) a lot a lot larrr ... hahahha . bt thanks u for the facial u try to make to me ... really good hor ????

u happy for those moment that together with me ?

for me , i am always happy for that and it still the same will always pop out in my mind . i will recall it all the time and laugh by myself . =)

thats all la ... to be continue =)

love u melissa tan !

chean wei lim

i sucks !

out of control

its finally get sick flu plus fever omg after the few day non stop from here to there and back again to normal .

but still there a lot of stuff have to worry about .

expecially u .

miss <3

good night

as what i told you ..

u still remember i what i said when i was beside u on the night ?

i said that i will write down all the fault from me once i make the mistake again right ?

i do remember always , as u know i damn lazy to update the blog ...

again , u speechless towards me .

my stubborn is could ruin all the things .

i always do the things it will only dissapoint you .

i never give u any of the happiness .

i know u are tired to be with me .

i know this relationship it make u aches for lots of time .

i do think about it too, i know that i aint perfect , i m not the bf who can u rely at all .

but then u keep on give me the chance , i do appreciate it always but then my bad attitude is pop out again and again .

i do try my best until i dunno what to do for the next right now .

i really do try my best already .

i know all my bad attitude last long ago .
i want to change too .

i do need someone who can tolerate me for sometimes and also dun mind what the wrong word that i say for sometimes ,by the way she will teach me about it because i doesnt mean to hurt u .

u give me a lot of chance , i know u are always try ur very best to give me the chance , but then i seems like not really appreciate it ..

sorry for that , i really trying my best ..

i got a lot of stress .

thinking much of way for everything not only u and me .

there are also the way to sg .

u know i wont leave u alone go to sg , honestly i done a lot of thing just because of u although i know that u dun need it .

u my gf , i proud to be ur bf . that not easy for u to choose me i know .. i suppose to be the perfect one but then i failed ..again and again .

i do ask myself for a lot of time , why i cant handle all the thing . v suppose is the perfect partner if without argueing about those thing .

i know all that can be solve but then again is me ruin all the thing .

v plan for the future at 1st but is me again who ruin everything until today u take us no future anymore ,.

yea , its hurt when i heard what u told me but then i know the hurt that in ur heart surely more than me .

i am a man , i hav to bare for everything .

u my gal , i suppose to protect u for everytime .

but then i make u cry for the time ..

i cant even forgive me about that ..

i feel myself really bad ..

u know what ... when the time u cry , the feeling of cry it come to me too but then i know i cant ....

i have to console u .

lend u my shoulder .

i love to hug u .

i wanna have the time that only with u because v just meet once for a long time .

at here , i just can say that ..

if u really feel that u want to leave me ..

u can just tell me ..

i will accept everything because i know that i really hurt u much ..

i dunwan to leave u but then i cant to be selfish ..

i love u that why i have to support all ur decision ..

as what u told me , we ll see ...

until the time u feeel that u cant bare anything more ..

until the day ur heart get lock and wont be open anymore ...

i always hope that v can be the best couple ...

and so , i will still keeep trying my best to handle all the thing kay ?

dear, i do love u much .

as u say u dun like i talk the sweet word , so that i can only say it at here .

i never treat u as gina kia . i just feel that i m only the gina kia in front of u . i so noob , i so ben , i cant control everything well .

lastly , i hope that our relationship goes smoothly until the day u dump me ..i promise that i will appreciate all the time that be with u . now u know that why i always just want to have the privacy time with u , i can just say that i wanna appreciate all the chance that can be with you and not to be disturb by the outside thingy .

i m not desprate , its just because i scare to los u and i scare no more the chance anymore .

i respect you .

thanks you .

i will never broke any promise anymore .

god will punish me .

i swear for what i said .

who is ?

Oh, i was perfect
For the circus
if she dared me, i do it
Love makes you stupid
i gave it up, But i guess it was not enough
Cause she never seemed satisfied

i Know i'm not perfect
But at the end of the day
Who is ?

she wanted someone thats perfect
Well Okay
But can you tell me Who is ?

she set the bar
Just above the stars
A rocket could'nt reach it
But i still kept on reaching
she watched me try
At least a thousand times
If she loved me, She'd stop me But noo

i Know i'm not perfect
But at the end of the day
Who is ?

she wanted someone thats perfect
Well Okay
But can you tell me Who is ?
I saw something worth my future
So wrong So wrong
In my mind i was all it took
But i guess i wasn't wrong

i Know i'm not perfect
But at the end of the day
Who is ?

she wanted someone thats perfect
Well Okay
But can you tell me Who is ?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kxEn36djjCA&feature=related

Love

Love you plus miss you

to MELISSA TAN

Harlo

Sorry for din update for so long of time who that view my blog !

again will update it tomorrow .

time for bed 1st and so i can recall back all the things !

just wait for it ! more and more to update soon !

good night !

26032011-04042011

was the day that she comes to penang . haha ! damn excited actually when the time i know that she will be in penang on that day . honestly to say that i cant for the night on 25 , i cant wait to see her actually .
i waked on the early morning and keep contact with my love, i purposely stay in penang for so many day for only wait for the comes of her .. hehe .
sharp on 4 , i went to airport for fetch her . (plane delay la )
hahahaha !
she still the same when the time she walked out .. muahahaha . Because of lack of the time , v planned to straight back to hometown on that time . she keeep on jeng me la in the car because of my driving skillls . omg . between , thanks for the shirt . i love it lots but damn expensive ...no next time pls .. that really exp==

28032011

the day that both of us talk face-to-face and finally we solved our problem . nothing that impossible , just learned to be tolerate . we back to normal , damn excited for it and i promise that i wont do the same mistake again . great that i got her .. i learned much from her actually ..... thanks u , love !

29032011

again , as the planned ..v went to penang together . early in the morning ,breakfast at dimsum.. haha ! me , dlen , her plus jiaki . v hang out all the time , as wad i promised before .. i will be the all time driver .. haha ! v have jokes around , fun around , food trip around , shop around , in the car around ... hope that she really happy for the 3days 2night trip in penang . promise again that i will bring her to another place as much as i can when the other time she beeen pg . jiaki always the joker for us , is glad that got this fren .
club in the second night ...
the next day back to alor star again . The most funny is i bring her to tesco for so called paktor ... muahahhahaha ! damn funny !

30032011-01042011

we hang around at alor star . non stop going out , together with all my joker fren ! v din miss any of time that free for outing , v almost meet for everyday , can see out that how much i miss her ! hahahaha .

02042011

she was mad because of her mummy aeroplane her on that day . And so , she drove out and fetch me for laksa . As what she told me , bring me to alor star mall for paktor (highclass than my tesco xD )v walk around in tesco and v talked lots .. hang out with her is love !

03042011

last night of her in alor star before she back to kl . omg ! i damn bu she de ! and keeep on finding the chance to get her out from house for only wanna meet her for one more time before she back to kl . v went to bali again together , she took a lot of picture . I know u got the feel of bu she de too , right ? same to me . Before i send her back to the home , v went to the garden nearby . we talked a lot , v share a lot of thing , we planned for future ... from there , i promise myself that i will work hard for everything just because of myself , my family and expecially for her . i wont dissapointed ppls ! trust me ! went to kfc after that , i love the way she smile she laugh .. i try my best to entertained my love ! she looks happy as what i expected . i hope that all the things goes smoothly , i dunwan to lost her !

04042011

A text that full of caring that receive by me from her . The feeling of love.. it really killed me much . i so hope that she will never back to kl anymore , but life .. life so important , i cant be selfish .. v have to fight for future ,same to her . i just can let it ... we just have to controlling everything nicely and let it go naturally and smoothly . i heart you !

THE SHE Is .
MELISSA TAN

<3

i failed .

again . i cant chill .

for not to make her be dissapointed again , can i just give out whatever i hope and just let her be happy ?

for her .. i m always not that chill .

but then ..

i not means that ..

but what the answer she give to me really hurt a lot thats why i just wanna to tell her ...

at last ..

she will only comment on me that i cant change and chill .

ya .

she dissapoited again and again .

i already try my best .

i know she aint happy at all to together with me .

so can i just give up and just let the everything goes .. maybe this is the way to let her be happy always ?

i hearts her ...

i hurt her

yea . i know that i hurt u much .

i make u dissapointed .

but then ..

because of i love u i have to say so .

the way for me to solve this problem is i want both of us know what problem on us and only hav a lil changes on it

this the way for us to solve the problem ..

but conclusion for now .. u never want to give us a chance to try but then u just keeep on ur decision that v not suitable or wad ...

not that i cant be patient .

just i wanna clear for everything and so just v can successs in every plan of us that planned before .

i dunno what should i do anymore .

maybe i stop disturb ur life is the best for u ...

i try my best already but then i still failed on everything .

i know i uselesss .

i broke all the promise on take care on u or wadever about i love u ..

i give up for now is just because i dunwan to argue with u anymore . i know ur tired . i jiust give up because i love u .

i know u hope for peace .

anyway ,

i love u my dear .

do love u always .

my heart damn aches for now honestly .

sorry for offline in the sudden .

i miss her

is wake up in the sudden on the sharp0544am now ..

i cant even fall in sleeep .

exhauted but then i miss her badly .

where are you ?

are you fine ?

hais

my lovely mum

my mum ,

who ask me go out with her to the bank for passing something to me .

omg, my mum

she did a lot for our family ,

by the way ,

i look on her face ,

我发现了她的辛苦 ，

我也开始发现了她逐渐地老了,

when the way i come back to penang with sis ,

i told her ,

sis , mum look old than before a lot dy . omg ! the aches in my heart raise wey ! luckily i can control , so called (ai bin ) .. i just take it nothing but then i just try to release all my feeling at here that without knowing by any ppls .

try to think if i without mum , what kind of ppl i will be for now .

mum , thanks for did so much for our family .

i know that u put a lot of hope on me this son .

i will never tell u all about this .

but then i promised myself that i will did back alot for u .

u will be proud of me at the last but not dissapointed .

sorry for the past the i did a lot that makes u worry and dissapointed about it just like i cant even finish the diploma when the time i m in kl .

sorry for my stubborn cause a lot of hurt towards you .

sorry for i always scold back u when the time i get scold by you .

because of my unpatient , u all always give me the chance to change and wont scold me a lot about that , just will tell me about that that i have to change .

sorry for everything expecially for the time i makes u tears ....

really sorry for that .

mum , i love you .

trust me .

i will be the one who make u proud .

I AINT PERFECT AT ALL ! * but i will change my everything to be perfect just like one in an million !

i love you mum and also my lovely family .

thanks for the support all the way .

she always pops out in my mind

She is the one who gave me a lot of energy before .

I keep on telling one of my friend that i miss her .

I hope that we can same back as before .

but again.......

everything of mine start to change since the day we seperate .

I finally realise how bad am i .

i cant tolerate with every ppls .

my attitude just sucks .

i m only the ppl who always forgive or tolerate by ppls until i not really realise it .

today , i get it and i am sure that i will change for everything .

i will be patient on everything .

by the way control my stubborn .

not be so sticky .

i know she dun like it ..

MY DEAr .

can i still same as before calling u as my dear ?

can i still same like before can story u when u are free ?

can i be the one who answer ur call when u having nightmare ?

i got a lot of can i ....

when will we got the chance again ?

or maybe no more ?

i love you .still the same miss u every moment .

u makes me got the feel wanna go kl to find u right now but then i have to chill for my final 1st . =)

i know sure u will mroe angry on me if i do so ..

i cannot be so disgusting ! hahahhahhaa

however , i hope u are fine for now ..

not to be so tress .

chill in ur final .

relax ur mind more .

sleep more .

dun give urslef too much of pressure .

but then dun always spend ur money okay ?

dun take those pillls if too stress or headache okay ?

many of don `t to u ! hahaha

waiting for ur back .

i cant wait to see u honestly .

although v are no more couple .......

end of today ..

sleep time ...

good night and also goodbye ppls .

text for Her that will not be send out today .

``my dear , so called da fei .

ni zhe ji tian zeng yang ar ?

you mei you bi jiao fang song zhi ji ar ?

shui de hao bu hao ar ?

how about ur finals ar ?

how ur lect treat u ar ?

u long time din show me ur work already yea .

i like u lansi ur works to me ar ?

between , u got ur talent ! hehe

honestly from my heart ! i love ur book cover and typo much but then i din say smth nice to u ! muahahhahaa

okay la . sleeep easrly for the night . good night and sleeep tight . i love you miss u muchiessss ....

=) ``

FROM THE ME LCW =(

i know u dun like it ...

how are you ?

how are u today ?

still the same busying with ur final ?

got enough of rest ? take ur lunch already ?

will u feel boring ?

got drink lot of water ?

need some story to chilll ?

do u got miss me just same like i miss you ?

sorry that u loved you .

still the same i wanna find u but i worry .

worry that i m annoying for you .

worry that i talk about the sensitive things again .

scare that wont have the chance anymore .

i love you my girl .

hope that you are mine .

bright future waiting for us .

but all that ....

is now already become the impossible .

woww....

hope u happy forever .

smile sweet stills .

u are always the best for me .

the most perfect gf who can change me a lot

the most perfect gf that i not even hav before .

i love you just like what i told others that i love you .

still the same ,

melissa tan ,

sorry to you because i cant be perfect for you .

i do love you and miss you much .

=)

u such my angel

good morning ppls ,

is really lack of sleep and feeel tired for this few day because of i not really can hav a good sleep in this few day .

again and again , i dreamed her .

well, i know those are only the sweet moment in my dream ,

i hope that it can be real but then i know that was impossible ,

she is sweet in my dream ,

care enough in my dream ,

i feel the warm from her in my dream ,

i really miss her a lot ,

honestly , is a dream , honestly i dreamed her ...

why only got the dream but then not in the realistic life ?!

seriously down .

i cant even stop thinking her !

i know i cant !

although i try !

i learn to be control well in everything but i know i failed .

well, final soon . i stress enough i want all the best in my work , but the situation of me by now is more stress and stress ....

i hope that it back to before .. i hope that everything can turn back to before ...

the us that without any worrying and enjoying all the moment without any stresss ....

Please

love u .

u will never know ..

well, bed time story to be continue but then have to finish up the blog of today .

again i have to shout out it at here .

no one will know .

i act nothing at all but then the aches the pain in my heart that will not feel by others ppl .

our distance become more far and far .. i cant even forget those moment of love .

u can say that v are just start and end in a very short period but then the truth love from me .. no one will know.. no one will trust .. i will never tell others .. u cant understand me ..

again , i continue to text my love early in the morning and doest get any reply from her . i know she treat me hopeless again and again because again my chao kuan out again , i cant be patient .. i know that she hate it much .. i try to hav a call with her wanna tell her about whats going to do of me by the moment but then she was only give me a short respon that she was busy , i know she hate me much .. i try my best and my best to get the forgiveness from her but i failed and failed again ..

i know thats hard ..

i cant be selfish .. well , for me sure i dunwan to los her but maybe she make the decision on leaving me is really a right decision for her . i cant give her any of confident and any of happiness when she was with me . i will only give her the stress and much more of pressure with she was with me , i should agree and support on what she decide . i cant be selfish . She love herself , she dunwan to hurt herself , she protect herself , i should no worry at all and just let her go .. maybe she can find a good one ..is not worth at all for her to continue with me , i love her i have to support her . i hope she will be perfect on anything of her . by the way , i choose to let myself get hurt rather than she get hurt . i aint perfect at all .

honestly i miss her alot on everymoment , the She is always pops out in my mind .. i feel that she is sweet enough cute enough .. once i got this kind of thinking in my mind , no one who can stop me from finding her . i wanna to chat with her , i wanna text with her , i wanna an call with her , i got lot of story to tell her , but then until the last i failed to do so because again and again my mind was telling me that not to be so disturbing and annoying to her . She got her life , she can protect herself =)

we plan alot when we are been together , but thennn .. there is too much of happened on us ..

i cant stop imagine all the moment , but now....

all start to change...

there is a lot of changing between both of us ..

the love .

the care .

the life .

the talk .

the contact .

the miss .

the ...

i know myself that i really dun hope to los her ..

but i know that is impossible for us ..

i failed to be a man for her ..

but thanks for alll the chances she give for both of us ..

i like us ...

i miss us ...

i love us...

but then all the change are now happened on us..

until now ..

v are no more the us ..

no one can blame us ..

i love HER ..

i can only wish her ..

hope that i can protect her by doesnt know by her ..

chill for both of us .

continue my bed time story ,

good night my love ,

i love u a lot and i miss u too .

sorry that i cannot be the one who can protect u and give u the comfortable of the feeling .

i dunwan to give u too much of tiredness so that i have to stop disturbing u and run into ur life anymore .

yea , i know all the fault from me .

i admit that i not understanding u well .

i always blame myself .

i no confident anymore because i know that impossible for us .

because i am always the loser .

loser of love .

i should blame myself because of 我不珍惜你

我爱你 melissa .

my msg to her that will not text to her .

love .. hopeless ..

其實我也不知道

你的眼光其實我都感覺得到
有些事情本來就很奧妙
無心的玩笑 故意挑剔的爭吵
都是愛情的前兆

你的眼淚其實我也感覺得到
有些事情真的很難預料
愛情的面前 我們真的太渺小
應該怎麼說才好

其實我也不知道 其實我也很苦惱
其實我很害怕你想要的我都做不到
除了緊緊的擁抱 誰能承諾天荒地老
我的苦笑 是否你能明瞭

其實我也不知道 其實我也很煎熬
其實我也想過放棄一切什麼都不要
緣份如此美妙 卻又如此困擾
是歡笑迷宮 又像寂寞監牢
讓人只想逃跑

你的眼淚其實我也感覺得到
有些事情真的很難預料
愛情的面前 我們真的太渺小
應該怎麼說才好

其實我也不知道 其實我也很苦惱
其實我很害怕你想要的我都做不到
除了緊緊的擁抱 誰能承諾天荒地老
我的苦笑 是否你能明瞭

其實我也不知道 其實我也很煎熬
其實我也想過放棄一切什麼都不要
緣份如此美妙 卻又如此困擾
是歡笑迷宮 又像寂寞監牢
讓人只想逃跑

嘿 謝謝你對我那麼好
我 常常覺得無以回報
愛 就是這麼微妙
它無法強求 它出現的時候不必尋找

其實我也不知道 其實我也很苦惱
其實我很害怕你想要的我都做不到
除了緊緊的擁抱 誰能承諾天荒地老
我的苦笑 是否你能明瞭

其實我也不知道 其實我也很煎熬
其實我也想過放棄一切什麼都不要
緣份如此美妙 卻又如此困擾
是歡笑迷宮 又像寂寞監牢
讓人只想逃跑

14032011

dear my da fei ,

i know u will not read for my blog , even that u will forget about my blog but then i still have to write it out about my feeling for now right here .

nobody who knows , nobody will ask , i will only shout out it at here .

today was the 1st day that v are totally out of contact since the 1st i know u until now .

i m really lack of comfortable because of this stuff but then i have to used to it because all the troublesome is comes from me , i know that was my fault , i failed to be a good bf for u .

i try myself not to be that but then i still cant make any changing on it , i know i was given lots of chances from u but then i still the same so stubborn

until today , u cant bare anymore and u get this chance to seperate with me only i realise that how much u are important to me and how much that sticky i am . i din ever learn to be more independent , once i din do anything then i will find u although u telling me that u are busy .

i know i m selfish . i promise myself that i will change . that lot of time i make the promise , but then i failed to do so .

this time again i promise to myself , i hav to make some changing on my this shit attitude . i trust that i can , i hope that u trsut me too and give me one more of the chance . i din expect too much from u seriously , but then i know its hard to get ur trust anymore .

i miss u a lot . i wanna hav a call with u . i wanna jokes with u . i need u kasi me . i need u perli me . i wanna share my things with u .

once be with u i never feeel any stress on anythings . u give me the feel of comfortable and also the confident , but then again and again i make u dissapointed . i feel wanna slap die myself .

i will wont disturb u anymore .

i hope to get back u , seriously but i know thats very hard . u not trust me anymore .

i love u a lots .

i miss u a lot .

i love the called by u as da fei for u because i know that i m really fei . hehe

but now ..

i m totally failed .... i failed....

i had nothing for now ...

just because of my selfish ........

my stubborn ...

my insane ...

my sticky ...

my ....

my....

i need you ! because u seriously can makes me change a lot ..

my hopes ...

..

but everything is gone... totally los all of the thing because of i never appreciate the chance that given to me ....

well . the troubles that from myself .

22012011 0100

is a nice date that i not even met it before . haha

she finally accepted me as her partner .

here is the starting point for us to get in a new relationship.

i love her a lot , i promised her a lot , i hope i can change all the attitude that should be change for myself , i trust her , i wish her be happy for all the times , hope she can share all the things that she cannot solve with me , hope that i m the one who important to her for sometimes , hope that she is the one who treat me sincere (not like others , the omg ! ) , i got so many hopes.. haha . sound like very over ! muahaha

from the day that i decided to chase her start , i promised myself that i will treat her nicely and appreciate on everything that she show me . She is the only one i love and i hope that she will be also the last one for me until the end of my life . (i know this is the rubbbish thinking for her but then i really hope so >is 2+ yr old for now , i should plan everything for myself ,should stop playing around and work hard for my future , u know that i m kind of the ppl who ngai alot and hope to win on everything , to prove that i m the one who really can successs so i should plan everything < the planned for me is not only the rubbish , i hope it will be the right one ! ) =)

she doest give me any stress when i m with her . I learned a lot from her .

i had learned to be more patient on everything , not to be careless , not to be selfish , not to me so abondon , not to be ngai ....alot a lot ... i heart her ! haha

hope that she is the right one for me ! and i promise that i wont make her dissapointed on everything about me once she is still with me ....until the end .....of my life ......

wow...seriously lack of sleep for nowaday

quite stress for my work for sometimes and some stuff that always stuck in my mind that only know by myself .

enjoy the few day that flies with dlen and jiaki , non stop shopping .

quite excited when the time i success to bought something for my love one although it not really an expensive stuff . hope that she will love it a lot

time to fight for my final , the few day for me is enough for me to relax my mind . hope that i got the new idea for my final .

between , i cant stop thinking and waiting for the back of my loved one . hahaha .

hope to see her soon .(quite miss her for sometimes)

22th february 2010 0100 am

finally the impossible changed to possible !

it makes out a lot of fun !

keep on !

=)=)

the daywe pas by during cny ..

wow .. its already the third day of cny .

but then it s still the same . nothing that changed . nothing that special .

muahahaha . everyday keep on gambling . everyday the same people. look like everything changed after v grow year by year . social ?there no more social . everything changed .

within this three day , got 1 question that keep on thinking by me and also asking about it .

i know i crazy to the max. this is my attitude although that i know what will happened after that . Although i know that the answer that i get will totally killing me hard ! but then i wont regret for it .. at least i got tried ! i tried !!! i love her . i love myself too .

The knowledge for me on chasing a girl is totally poor . I keep on said those word that will make someone misunderstand because the word i using is totally noob ! yea i know ! =)

The girl who is the girl who make me fall in a deep love toward her ! MexXxxx Txx !

ya apologize to u sincerely . hope that u wont angry me . i know is my fault . i m not trying to force u .

i not means it , but i know my action that show out for u make u feel it .

i love you .

just keep on selfish thinking wanna to be with you .

i never give u the time for thinking .

i dint give u the time to breath .

hehe .. its my fault ! sorry , i love u with my true heart ! pit bob .. pit bob.. pit bob.. pit bob .. is the sound that i can heard from my heart ! is u .. make out the sound effect ! crazy me !

i should stop everything . cheer it up !

relax all the way .

rush on the wrong way will kill all the thing . yea i know !

that why ..

i promise that i will try my best ... not try ... is must ... must change my those bad attitude to the good attitude that will give u a trust , believe ....and confident . i will make sure that u wont regret if u be with me .. i will prove it !

but then .. it will take sometime , just to be honest .

between , about girls ..... i aint flexible at all .

whatever ? yea , exactly ... beside.. my whatever will kill me !

everything just be whatever for me .. i like to say whatever to the gal .

hehe !

flexible . i m not ! the love of me to her is totally more than the love on me toward my hair ... means that how much i care my hair .. and this show out that how much i love u ! melissa tan ..

i promise that will help her on smth before ,

but i think she already forget it .

but what that i already promise surely that i will do it nicely .. i wont broke it !

GOD BLESS ME .

c.w lim

Am i weird ?

Am i weird for you ?

or u just don`t try to understand me ?

hopeless for me ?

i don`t like to talk it out clear and clear and for much of time ..

but i just hope a clear from you .

sound emo . haha

i don`t really understand myself too .

i dunno what i hope for actually .

Sometimes , i `m too rush . Its makes everything fail like jumping into hell !

what for ...

i `m selfish . i scare to lost all the thing i want .

Omg . take a looks . how weird i`m . hahah XD

i hope i can get your heart . i hope i can full fill ur heart . i hope i can only own ur heart .

aiyorrr.....whatever la.....

WHAT HAPPENED ON YOU ,CHEAN WEI ?

Something special about HER

As what james blunt sang in his song .

She is beautiful enough , it`s true .

She is kind enough ,it`s true .

She is not tall enough but she is also not short at all --conclusion: balance

She is slim for others but SHE is actually fat for me -- shhh ... i know she will angry once she saw this ! but then i like her much than what i can say .

Sometimes , she is quite talkative (seem like not for sometimes but is for all the time XD) , but without her talkative , i will feel boringness .

The she give me lots of happiness nowaday although WE are keep perli each other all the time !

She is friendly enough . Thats why she like by all the friends and full of the guys who like to join her .

She love chatting ,she likes to chat around with her friends . ( but then i like to jealous although i know i din`t have the chance to get into jealousy )

She playful enough , play around with her friends . (of course sometimes i will feel unhappy ,but then who cares ? i can`t do anythings because i `m not her bf =) eventhough i`m her bf also i can`t try to control her wad . right ?! social life . WE ARE STILL YOUNG !

She is the so called strong girl that full of hope .

She love design , she play hard on anythings of her design works ! i like this because i`m also the one who love design lots ! ahaha !

Between , she is hardworking enough( x100000000).............unlimits than ME because i `m quite lazy . (She can just because of rushing her work and try don`t to sleep for the 24 hour but i trust that i can`t ! XD)

She ... she is the one who full of imagination . am i ? (designer wad , have to get in crazy and crazy on ur design )

I like to complain her that she is always the ~`da xiao jie ` (she is but also not fully as . She know alots , she can handle all the things by herself although she is alone in KL .DAMN ENVY LA GAL ! )

She likes story ( but is the story from peoples ) especially the story from me muahahahhahaha ! am i right? ( but no more ya after this ! )

She damn hate peoples trying to broke promise on her . ( So that i`m trying not to be the one who broke the promise because at last, sorry is no cuel. )

She damn like to call peoples as noobie . (but then i like the way she call me so because think for the past of me , i `m really noob )

She......

sometimes of course she will try to be insane (hope that she can change it )

She......

likes to say that i `m not really know her well ( i know u well gal just i don`t try to show it )

She......

not easy to chase (ahhahaha XD i feel so )

She......

She........

She..........is not my gf . She is the girl who made me changed a lots . super thanks to SHE .

She..........makes me fall deep and deep towards her ( i won`t regret on everything i said . i promise .

She............can be my everything .(because she same as me love Design love Family )

She.............is the one who can made my life more into meaningfull life on this moment and also the moment always get into full stop at here , no more and no more after that .

She............... is the one i loved .

I WANT SHE TO BE MY ONLY GIRL ONE DAY

will i have the small little chance ,girl ?

THAT S ALL --to be continue =>

BE PATIENT --there`s still a lots about SHE

SHE IS THE SPECIAL FOR ME ALL THE TIME

SHE IS ALWAYS THE CUTE~TY FOR ME ! XD

By CHEANWEI THAT WRITE ABOUT SHE (MXXXXXX TXX)

22-01-2011 0320

deep !

fall into the deep sea , u cant even find me .
imagine that i`m fly top in the sky , u cant even touch me .
u shout on me , i cant even hear it .
u scold on me , i wont even mind it .
until the day u tell me u fall deep towards me , only i will care it !

wtF that i trying to post here ?meaningless .