u will never know ..

well, bed time story to be continue but then have to finish up the blog of today .

again i have to shout out it at here .

no one will know .

i act nothing at all but then the aches the pain in my heart that will not feel by others ppl .

our distance become more far and far .. i cant even forget those moment of love .

u can say that v are just start and end in a very short period but then the truth love from me .. no one will know.. no one will trust .. i will never tell others .. u cant understand me ..

again , i continue to text my love early in the morning and doest get any reply from her . i know she treat me hopeless again and again because again my chao kuan out again , i cant be patient .. i know that she hate it much .. i try to hav a call with her wanna tell her about whats going to do of me by the moment but then she was only give me a short respon that she was busy , i know she hate me much .. i try my best and my best to get the forgiveness from her but i failed and failed again ..

i know thats hard ..

i cant be selfish .. well , for me sure i dunwan to los her but maybe she make the decision on leaving me is really a right decision for her . i cant give her any of confident and any of happiness when she was with me . i will only give her the stress and much more of pressure with she was with me , i should agree and support on what she decide . i cant be selfish . She love herself , she dunwan to hurt herself , she protect herself , i should no worry at all and just let her go .. maybe she can find a good one ..is not worth at all for her to continue with me , i love her i have to support her . i hope she will be perfect on anything of her . by the way , i choose to let myself get hurt rather than she get hurt . i aint perfect at all .

honestly i miss her alot on everymoment , the She is always pops out in my mind .. i feel that she is sweet enough cute enough .. once i got this kind of thinking in my mind , no one who can stop me from finding her . i wanna to chat with her , i wanna text with her , i wanna an call with her , i got lot of story to tell her , but then until the last i failed to do so because again and again my mind was telling me that not to be so disturbing and annoying to her . She got her life , she can protect herself =)

we plan alot when we are been together , but thennn .. there is too much of happened on us ..

i cant stop imagine all the moment , but now....

all start to change...

there is a lot of changing between both of us ..

the love .

the care .

the life .

the talk .

the contact .

the miss .

the ...

i know myself that i really dun hope to los her ..

but i know that is impossible for us ..

i failed to be a man for her ..

but thanks for alll the chances she give for both of us ..

i like us ...

i miss us ...

i love us...

but then all the change are now happened on us..

until now ..

v are no more the us ..

no one can blame us ..

i love HER ..

i can only wish her ..

hope that i can protect her by doesnt know by her ..

chill for both of us .

continue my bed time story ,

good night my love ,

i love u a lot and i miss u too .

sorry that i cannot be the one who can protect u and give u the comfortable of the feeling .

i dunwan to give u too much of tiredness so that i have to stop disturbing u and run into ur life anymore .

yea , i know all the fault from me .

i admit that i not understanding u well .

i always blame myself .

i no confident anymore because i know that impossible for us .

because i am always the loser .

loser of love .

i should blame myself because of 我不珍惜你

我爱你 melissa .

my msg to her that will not text to her .

love .. hopeless ..